what's going on in this world of mine??duh..

it's pretty nice again...got to leave a message with hoohoo but I doubt he gets it...lost his cp(cellphone) and so that may be why he hasn't called at all but then, who knows..might be tired of me, that could happen easy enough..other than that...had a burpday and it went with the announcement from Mom that there will be no more presents from her...kind of a letdown to say the least but eh...we know how it goes...she barely knows her own name anymore so who would be doing the talking there?  she wants me to wait on her when we are at friday lunch, I don't mind this but yet the no more birthday presence kind of throws me into a dark corner that I don't know where to find the overhead light...and I wonder what will become of my hopes and dreams now I don't have my little job with JW anymore...she just kind of cut me loose after she got that indictment from her cardiac physician, like I had something to do with her health, I was trying my best always to keep her in the light but now I'm told that I wasn't thorough or efficient enough and so someone else has taken my place, someone JW loaned money to and is being paid back by cleaning for her, which I had done for the last four years...like a chapter in my life suddenly ending and I am sad about it...but, that's the way it goes...I feel heavy hearted about that but it's better because JW never had kind things to say about DL...'watch out for HIM' and so on, and he's after JS and so on...I doubt it...meanwhile, I was wanting to post this last tuesday and there was no internet here but now there is (VC) so I can say what's on my mind and let it flow...my garden at JW's is looking like 'where's Momma??' but I can't go there even though I am very curious how the zucchini did and if the pumpkin survived...the two kittens of Rocky are Balboa and Sylvester, Sylvester has the markings of an orca and should go to DL but I have to wait for DL to get in touch and I don't see that happening and I am sad about it but Thu's father and mother are going back to NV and that has something to do with the bigger picture but I don't know what, and then there is Tim who is my little brother John's holocaust mainframe/music and rhetoric apparently were his main attributes...Tim accompanied me on my birthday to the Beaver Chili Cookoff and we danced but I was adamant that he not touch me in any way...isn't that so strange?  but that's how it was...there is nothing intimate in my relationship with Tim and he's around occasionally, in fact, if DL has let me go and I don't know that but he left a facebook post that he'd lost his cellphone and all his numbers and to call him so could I do that?  that I can't decide I feel as though he's said bye bye indirectly but he wasn't that kind of social anyway...brusque is the best word for what he was...oh yes and the co op...now...we work there for nothing and expect great returns from who?  Langley?  that's long in coming if so...we've got DOS on M and A and yet we get the feedback in buckets of poop mostly...it's a good process if you're the family dog and I'm not that so I wonder...oh yeah and since the demise of JW..there is now Miss Dana which would be the bauding up of Edna...or Alice whathave you...and Dana has a harley she's selling for 12g pretty blue my birthstone color Sapphire...which you know that'd be fun but well...again...was promised a little gig there helping get the place she got cleaned up and here comes Rachel to to do the honors...Lisa walks to the mailbox here from accross the street...we're wondering why the mailbox out front has to go..couldn't be JF and co making it home away from home? trailer and so on...so Wolfe L and V still riding the herd at SW but it's obvious the last leg M has to stand on and fallout is very costly DL??ok enough...said it all...going home to tar in a bit..