ahhh...it is so good to finally be here at home writing...miss my children so much...and I've had phone conversations with the 'loved one' although it seems as though that has been thoroughly complicated by things other than what it is...interferences..people 'representing' that whom they are not...rushing in..being those someones...and they are not them... very complicated..
went to the fair...'are you going to scarborough fair'..that I am..very heavy heart, due to the illness, probably final, of my mother...and the three ghouls sitting there at the table dividing up the spoils as though they were the ones who earned the right to do so...I know, I should be patient, that it will all work out to everyone's benefit..but it does not..and so it goes...talked to my daughter, she asked me, were you calling to see if I'd written you a check?? ... no, not really, wanted to hear your baby's voice, see how you were..I know th at money stuff will all work out, wasn't even concerned about that but there's that question..and it seems too harsh...phew...at last I can write here..worked towards it..slept oin the back deck...got up at 5:30am... fussed and fidgeted, missed chrch here..went to town, waited for things to open, en voila.. things did not open for the flower building..they will be open on Tuesday...how I wsih for things to be as they should be..
drinking Dos Equis...on the last bottle..cats running in and out...sighing, he did talk to me..and now he doesn't...one wonders 'where does he go??' but he's here and I shall know so..like the grand display of pot roast with potatoes in gravy...peas...carrots..a subtlely flavored cake..some salad..nouishment...so it goes..had quite a bit of milk at breakfast...lots of coffee..out of reading materials, some movies...talked to Tim..he wasn't there..definitely a version of the product, probably the sharpening tool...not bothering with you...as though he could just shut me off. ask Casares? what was that, a version of Saar..time to take away the spider's webs..whatever..paltry conversions from Roe...what was Roe to me? hmmm... the son-in-law of TWAIN of course, deployed the airlines to Hawaii that we had..diverted them to what?? little a's vi??
probably...sighs..should slleep on the deck again..kind of despondent due to T's response..he was gone momentarily...so it is...we'll see..
went to the fair...'are you going to scarborough fair'..that I am..very heavy heart, due to the illness, probably final, of my mother...and the three ghouls sitting there at the table dividing up the spoils as though they were the ones who earned the right to do so...I know, I should be patient, that it will all work out to everyone's benefit..but it does not..and so it goes...talked to my daughter, she asked me, were you calling to see if I'd written you a check?? ... no, not really, wanted to hear your baby's voice, see how you were..I know th at money stuff will all work out, wasn't even concerned about that but there's that question..and it seems too harsh...phew...at last I can write here..worked towards it..slept oin the back deck...got up at 5:30am... fussed and fidgeted, missed chrch here..went to town, waited for things to open, en voila.. things did not open for the flower building..they will be open on Tuesday...how I wsih for things to be as they should be..
drinking Dos Equis...on the last bottle..cats running in and out...sighing, he did talk to me..and now he doesn't...one wonders 'where does he go??' but he's here and I shall know so..like the grand display of pot roast with potatoes in gravy...peas...carrots..a subtlely flavored cake..some salad..nouishment...so it goes..had quite a bit of milk at breakfast...lots of coffee..out of reading materials, some movies...talked to Tim..he wasn't there..definitely a version of the product, probably the sharpening tool...not bothering with you...as though he could just shut me off. ask Casares? what was that, a version of Saar..time to take away the spider's webs..whatever..paltry conversions from Roe...what was Roe to me? hmmm... the son-in-law of TWAIN of course, deployed the airlines to Hawaii that we had..diverted them to what?? little a's vi??
probably...sighs..should slleep on the deck again..kind of despondent due to T's response..he was gone momentarily...so it is...we'll see..
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